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In 2002, Anita Moorjani, born of Hindu descent was diagnosed with cancer. For the following 4 years, her body valiantly fought this insidious dis-ease that was slowly shutting down her bodily organs one by one. Until February 2, 2006, the day “I died.” Although in a coma, I was acutely aware of everything that was happening around me, including the sense of of urgency and emotional frenzy of my family as they rushed me to the hospital. When we arrived, the moment the oncologist saw me, her face filled with shock. “Your wife's heart may still be beating,” she told my husband Danny, “but she's not really in there. It's too late to save her.”
By Anita's account in her transcendent personal memoir ‘Dying To Be Me’, although she was in a complete coma, she was able to hear and see everything that was happening around her body. She was having an NDE. (Near Death Experience) But unlike many of the other narratives I have consumed on this phenomenon, this one was less grandiose and usurped any sense of the traditional tropes usually found in such accountings. There are no ‘white lights’ or personal meetings with Messianic energies. In place of these experiences, Moorjani's retelling of her NDE is filled with Re-membrance and HOPE. And an incredibly powerful message for those of us still finding our way on this remarkable Journey called life!
“Know I have said it before, but it bears repeating: I now live my life from JOY instead of FEAR. This is the one simple difference between who I was before my NDE and who I am today. Before, without even realizing it, everything I did was to avoid pain or to please other people. I was caught up in doing, pursuing,searching, and achieving; and I was the last person I ever took into consideration. My life was driven by FEAR- of displeasing others, of failing, of being selfish, and of not being good enough. In my own head, I always fell short,” recalls Moorjani.
I don't know about you, but I can relate in many ways to her recollection of her life before her NDE. And I have MORE than a intuitive feeling that many of you reading this even share many of her exact thoughts and feelings right NOW.... And as I have stated oh so often in many of my previous posts, EVERYTHING that happens in our experience is for our greater good. And I do mean EVERYTHING!! No Thing is ever wasted in this Universe. Because everything is made up of pure and perfect energy and we are all a part of this ONENESS. As Albert Einstein said, “The only thing you have to decide is whether we live in a compassionate Universe.” The rest is just pure folly!! As Anita found out during her near death journey!
“My heightened awareness in that expanded realm was indescribable, despite my best efforts to explain it. The clarity was amazing. The Universe makes sense! I realized. I finally understand-I know why I have cancer! I was too caught up in in the wonder of that moment to dwell on the cause, although I would soon examine it more closely. I also seemed to comprehend why I'd come into this life in the first place- I knew my true purpose. Why do I suddenly understand all this,? I wanted to know. Who is giving me this information? is it God? Krishna? Buddha? Jesus? And then I was overwhelmed by the realization that God isn't a BEING, but a state of being.... and I was now that state of being! Every single encounter was woven together to create the fabric that was the sum of my life up to this point. I may only have been one thread, yet I was an integral part to the overall finished picture.”
And GUESS WHAT, so are each and every one of you.!! You are all a perfectly crafted concoction that encompasses all the beauty in the Universe. And you DESERVE to be loved, cherished and adored beyond any measure previously fathomable simply because you exist. Because we are all connected at every level, your every action has an effect on both YOU as well as the collective whole. And it is this very Re-membrance that Anita Moorjani brought back with her to share with the world during her Heroine's Journey during her NDE!
“I became aware that we are all connected. This was not only every person and living creature, but the interwoven unification felt as though it were expanding outward to include everything in the universe. I realized that the entire universe is alive and infused with consciousness, encompassing all life and nature. We're all facets of that UNITY-we're all ONE......” writes Moorjani.
“I also understood that the cancer was not some punishment for anything I had done wrong, nor was I experiencing negative karma as a result of any of my actions, as I'd previously believed. It was as though every moment held infinite possibilities, and where I was at this point in time was a culmination of every decision, every choice, and every thought of my entire life. My many fears and great power had manifested as this disease.”
Moorjani's book is so full of such subtle insight and beautiful prose that I won't spoil any more of her Journey for those of you who may be interested in buying a copy for yourself. I think you will be incredibly glad if you choose to do so!!
So I ask you- are you living life or slowly ‘Dying to BE.’ Because there is simply no reason to do that. We must simply BE STILL and search our thoughts and feelings for the answers to our greatest dilemmas and for the reason we came. Please stop wasting the time of your BEINGNESS. It is the most precious gift we have and musn't be wasted or it will be worn into the shards of time.
As Moorjani espouses, “I believe that the greatest truths of the Universe don't lie outside, in the study of the stars and the planets. They lie deep within us, in the magnificence of our heart, mind, and soul. Until we understand what is within, we can't understand what is without.”
Nerdmaste,
Jeffrey Louis Martinez
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