Perhaps one of the most challenging aspects of having the persistent COURAGE to take a path toward Self Realization is the cacophony of times you may have to ‘Fall off The Horse’ of your HEART as a natural part of the transformational process. And has anyone reading actually ever fallen off of a real horse? I have and let me tell ya, my tushie still smarts from the thought of it! NO FUN! It hurts like hell and is ALMOST equally embarrassing. Luckily for me, my high jinx while horsin' around were way before cell phones were in everyone's pockets, just waiting to capture such precious memories!! LOL So you will just have to use your imaginations.............
I use this metaphor as a way of introducing you to a very common phenomenon that invariably occurs as soon as you make a clear and conscious DECLARATION to the Universe of who you now CHOOSE TO BE! And it usually unfolds something along these literal lines. You do an amazing amount of meditating, reading, workshops, seminars, coaching and come to that magical AH HA moment of realization in which blocks and/or limiting beliefs are seen for the ego illusions that they actually are meant to be. And your body tingles with GODBUMPS!! You know the feeling I am talking about if you are on this path! And suddenly, its party time! Yeaaaaaa for me! I am growing, learning, and raising my personal level of consciousness. All is good in the world and the horizon seems unlimited in its potential of future manifestations. Is any of this resonating so far?! For many of you, I am sure it is hitting a chord of commiseration.
And then, out of the blue, your world becomes flooded with the EXACT OPPOSITE people, experiences, and circumstances from the new vibrational declaration you have fought so valiantly toward. Toxic ex boyfriends and/or girlfriends start showing up out of the blue. Events that once triggered you into egoic and low energetic vibrations start manifesting no matter what way you turn. And you begin to believe one of two things; either you are slowly going looney tunes, or all this self transformational work is complete and total bullshit!! Trust me, I've been there on several occasions. In fact, at one point, this phenomenon caused me to grab a black ink magic marker to start ‘HIGHLIGHTING’ some of my favorite passages from the pastiche of transformative books in my collection. Well, (Marking through a paragraph in all black ink) never have to read that passage again! Don't believe me, I have the blackened passages to prove it! Just sayin...... ;0)
All this changed when a past mentor sat me down to set me straight. And I will now share his wisdom with you! The moment that you make this declaration of WHO YOU NOW CHOOSE TO BE, everything unlike it will flood into your existence. BUT IT IS NOT A TEST. I repeat, this is NOT about the Universe trying to test your essence. It isn't set up that way. Life isn't a game, nor is your experience of it. It's serious spiritual stuff transpiring here! Now what is occurring is SOURCE energy allowing you the most precious of OPPORTUNITIES. In this realm we traverse through 7 different levels of energy at any given time, and this is simply the Universe's way of double checking that this new YOU is truly what you DESIRE and where you Now Vibrationally Resonate. And please learn to accept and be in complete gratitude of this often incredibly challenging process. Think about it for a minute. Given our society's prevalent ADHD and oscillation in our decision making process, aren't you thankful that this system gives you time to make sure our impetuousness is not clouding our new TRUTH?!? I know I sure am! I can't fathom what my life would look like if the transformation of my Superhero's Journey shifted on every emotional whim that crossed through my complex internal processing Paradigm. While it might make for a terrific episode of E! True Hollywood Stories it certainly wouldn't support my highest vision! And that is just plain old keepin' it real!! Who is with me?!?
So how do we measure our progress through these moments of opportunistic deluges? The answer is fairly simple! We GAUGE the time we spend in allowance of these disruptions to distract us from our new TRUTH! In fact, I will share with you exactly what I mean with a recent experience of my own when I temporarily fell of my horse for a young lady I recent met. As I have disclosed in many previous posts, given my traumatic childhood, I had a long standing pattern of chasing after women who were emotionally unavailable, and/or treated me in a manner that was much less than I deserved. I ignored red flags the same way so many of us ignore the stoplight as it turns yellow to mean GO FASTER!! LOL Seriously! For many years, LOVE to me equalled struggle, chaos, and having to prove that I was worthy of someone's care and attention. As pathetic as it sounds, it was something conditioned and imprinted into my psyche from a very early age when my father abandonded the family when I was a mere three years old. That led to many years of various mental, sexual, and physical abuse at the hands of my caretakers that had a lasting impact on my conditioning about what relationships should look like.
After years of self realization work, I know I have made significant progress toward healing these dysfunctional patterns and my own level of self worth has skyrocketed in the process. Thank you God!! Well the past couple of weeks, I have been communicating with a lovely young lady who seemed spiritual and kind and incredibly conscious. THEN, some red flags started to rear their nasty head, all cumulating in a very painful, caustic, extremely judgmental interaction last evening that lasted into the wee hours of the night. Now five years ago, I would have stayed up all night writing her an email to try and make amends with our night's painful co-creation! But NOT THIS NIGHT!! No way Jose!
I decided to be a true Lightworker and shine my new found level of self worth into her darkness. I did not allow her to dim my light!! Five years ago, I would have woken up this morning as a basket case. Full of self judgment and self loathing. And spending an inordinate amount of time trying to make amends from last nights escapades. But NOT on this day. I have not responded back to her caustic texts and actually hold her in a place of absolute reverence. But FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM! I am still LOVING her, but it is perfectly OK to love someone from the other side of the room!! And just think of the birthday and Christmas card money I am going to save this year!! LOL
The ultimate point I wish to convey in this post is that the path toward self mastery is a never-ending process. And just when we think we have graduated from a lesson in our pattern, it often has a funny way of resurfacing just when we are ready to bask in the light of our accomplishments! And the real truth of the matter is that there is no Right or Wrong with whatever way you decide to go. Either fall back with the crows, or lift off and fly with the Eagles! It all comes down to who you truly choose to be and manifest next in life!
One last thing I would like to impart in tonight's post is that LIFE IS NOT A TEST!
LIFE IS NOT A TEST
Please do not misunderstand me! I am not trying to condone or make light of the plethora of tragedy, loss, pain, and suffering we all endure at various points in our lives. Life can be BRUTAL. Even soul crushing at times. We often lose our faith in any form of a higher power. But rather than looking at them as TESTS, what would it look like for us to transcend our challenges as opportunities for MIRACLES to surround and support us. And for US to BE THOSE MIRACLES for others. In the form of love, compassion, kindness, generosity of spirit, and understanding. THAT is why we are here and without these OPPORTUNITIES, we would not be able to experience the glorious feelings they afford us.
LIFE IS NOT A TEST
Everyone will be challenged and endure times of struggle and strife on their unique Hero's Journey. But the Universe wastes absolutely NOTHING! Everything you experience is happening THROUGH YOU and FOR YOU, not TO YOU!! Big difference!
Thinking things happen TO YOU is a mindset of Victim Consciousness. And You Are Not a Victim! PERIOD and Mic Drop!! And re-member that we are built for pain. In fact, you will never find a better teacher than the Pain Professor. It would serve you well to let Pain in, rather than resisting it. Allow it to stay until you have learned what it came to teach. For those lessons will prove to be the most valuable on your Hero's Journey!
LIFE IS NOT A TEST
There is no such thing as FAILURE! (Unless you never try!) Failure is simply Constructive Feedback from the Universe! It is always instructional in nature. These are opportunities to grow and learn from. The Universe does not work on a Pass/Fail basis! Unlike the game of baseball, you get as many swings as you desire! The Universe will give you Do Over after Do Over, but NOT to test you. Please believe that 'Life is Rigged Completely In Your Favor!' The Universe sent you here for a reason. And it supports you in your Mission Possible!! Do Overs are just the Universe's way of allowing you to get the lesson and wisdom you need to complete the next step on your Hero's Journey! Ask and it shall be given, for the power and glory are all yours! You are Never alone on your quest. In fact, if you knew who walks beside you at all times, you would never experience Fear ever again.........
LIFE IS NOT A TEST
It's not as if God cast you out of Heaven and then makes you pass a series of TESTS to 'Get Back In.' We are Divine creations, perfect in every way. Each of us is priceless. Never devalue your sense of SELF! In doing so you are devaluing God Herself!
Our collective MISSION has been Divinely Devised. You each have a unique CALLING. And it can only be fulfilled BY YOU !! The byproduct of its completion is nothing less than the rapture of a gateway towards Beams of Bliss flowing into our Collective Consciousness. Expanding and infusing the energetic radiance of LOVE AND LIGHT, Peace and Wisdom, Compassion and Kindness back into the World! And the stout KNOWINGNESS that as you spread these gifts of Blissful Boosts to others, so will this BLISS be brought back unto you! For that which you do for others, you do for yourself! The illusion of Separation will dissolve into nothingness. Forevermore, You and I, will BE ONE!!
LIFE IS NOT A TEST
As Pastor Steve Simons says:
God is not measuring you. God is leading you.
God is not judging you. God is instructing you.
God is not condemning you. God is picking you up. Dusting you off, and saying, "You'll get it better next time."
God is not testing you. God is loving you, providing for you, blessing you, and giving you life.
Where you see failure, God sees opportunity.
Where you may see obstacles, God sees potential.
Where you see defeat, God sees impending victory.
So close your eyes and take a deep breathe! And then Let It Go! Learn to RELAX!! Always do your best, because your best will ALWAYS DO!! After all, LIFE IS NOT A TEST.........
BE SUPER HEROIC!
Nerdmaste,
Jeffrey Louis Martinez
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