WHY It Takes COURAGE To Be Truly GREAT...!!

As most of you daily New Age Nerd readers are quite aware, during this past Christmas Eve, I had a transcendent vision that continues to have quite a profound impact on my life. For me, it truly couldn't have come at a more exacting point in this illusionary space of time. Last year was a culmination of over a decade of daily life poundings in every form this earthly realm can dish out. I often remember feeling like I was in the movie An Officer and A Gentleman. In which an officer in training, Zack Mayo, (Richard Gere) keeps taking an extraordinary amount of torturous punishment from his commanding officer, Emil Foley, played by Louis Gosset Jr. All so that he will quit his training and leave the military environment he so desperately desires to be a part of. 

EMIL FOLEY:  You ready to quit now Mayo!!

MAYO: (doing pushups in the mud) No sir!

EMIL FOLEY: Life sure has dealt you some shitty cards, hasn't it Mayo?! 

MAYO: I'm alright sir!

EMIL FOLEY:  Bullshit! I've done some checkin'.  I looked through your files. I know 'bout your momma. Don't you eyeball me boy!  I know your father is an alcoholic and a whore chaser. That's why you don't mesh Mayo! I said don't you eyeball me boy! Because deep down inside you know all these other boys and girls are better than you are! Isn't that right! Isn't that right!!

MAYO: No sir!

EMIL FOLEY: I want your DOR. (Drop on Request- Quit)

MAYO: No sir!

EMIL FOLEY: I want your DOR.

MAYO: I ain't gonna quit!

EMIL FOLEY: Spell it! D... O ...R!!!

MAYO: No, sir! I ain't gonna quit!

EMIL FOLEY: Then you can be free and you and your daddy can get drunk and go whore chashin' together!

MAYO: No sir!!

EMIL FOLEY: DOR!

MAYO: I aint gonna quit!

EMIL FOLEY: Ok, then you can forget it! You're out!

MAYO: (screaming and crying) Don't you do it! Don't you do it!

EMIL FOLEY: Why!!

MAYO: (still crying) Cause, I got no where else to go! I....got know where else to go!! 



Because just like Zach Mayo, I really didn't feel like I fit in, nor had a place I could go to find any permanent sense of peaceful solace. Many years earlier, I had even tried to take my own life. Thinking that would end the pain. And before you judge, let me share with you that being in that sort of emotional state is beyond comprehensible. It's not selfish in any manner. Nor is it a declaration of weakness. If anything, it's a proclamation of extreme strength. Because every single moment spent in that type of tormenting hell seems like an eternity! And simply having the courage to face "another day" is a testament to one's raw inner power.  Trust me!

And that's what makes my "Christmas Vision" that much more validating. For there were so many nights in which I had succumbed to such physical, emotional, and psychic pain that I would stare up to the heavens and whisper, "Is that all you got! Cause I'm gonna keep gettin' back up. So you better start hitting a lot harder than that!"  


But even Jesus the Christ went into the Garden of Gethsemane to pray for strength prior to his capture and crucifixion. He had become deeply afraid of the path before him. And who wouldn't be?! And so he prayed and questioned GOD for another way to fulfill his Mission :

Once Jesus and the disciples arrived, Jesus drew away Peter, James, and John—His core three followers. He asked them to stay with Him. "My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death; remain here and keep watch with Me" (Matthew 26:38). He then went a little farther, fell to His face, and, in agony, asked God to find another way. His sweat fell like drops of blood; God sent an angel to comfort Him. We cannot know the depths of Jesus' sorrow at this time. While Jesus wept in anguish, Peter, James, and John fell asleep. 



But deep down within my being, I always knew that everything I was going through was happening FOR ME and not TO ME! But as I am sure you can all attest, that does NOT always make the Journey any easier. Good intentions are only as powerful as our ability to find peace from the manner in which they have been placed within us. And sometimes it feels as though peace has selected another suitor, no matter your deliberate dating tactics.

To suffer without meaning is my only definition of a Sin. Thankfully, I now have a clear understanding of every single moment spent in my own hellish pain. My favorite definition of HOPE is not in the conviction that things will turn out in the way you deemed fitting. But rather they fall into place in a manner that makes sense and offers you insightful meaning for their very reason for being. For that is when we become trusting in allowing the Universe to become our full time orchestrator! And we can RELAX INTO THE FLOW!

Because we are living in times in which everyone is searching for a SUPERHERO. Someone with the willingness and tenacity to step out amongst the masses and stand up for something that will rock this world back toward LOVE! If there is one thing I have learned these past few months, it's that it takes a gi-normous amount of COURAGE to be truly great! We have become a numbed out society that sheepishly walks along a line with very few lions left to shake us out of our slumber. And yet, when one decides to commit to this undertaking, they are often met with a vitriolic vibration. People desire change, yet most have become so attached to their comfort zones, that anything that will nudge them from their zombie like lifestyles causes a conscious chaffing. It makes them uncomfortable. And in the beginning stages, the messenger pays the price for their complacency. 

Since December 25th, as many of you all know, I have shed much of my previous life. This includes, jobs, old routines, mindsets, and even many friends. I was "given notice" that it's finally my time to fully commit, in ways never before attempted, to assist others who are ready to awaken to their Super Heroic Higher Selves. And I can proudly say that I earned every damn piece of thread on my own superhero's cape. The "buffet line of life" I have endured was the perfect proving ground for my Mission! And every single challenge I have faced perfectly prepared me for exactly what I came here to DO and BE! And I could not be more grateful. All the pain and suffering was SO worth it! Yet, I am learning my job isn't about to get easier any time soon!  I have been called crazy, delusional, outta my mind ( my personal favorite) and sometimes all the judgment takes a toll. I've let go of most of my friends and on some days I'm left with only my own conviction to continue being love!

Because, again, it takes great COURAGE to be great! Because the moment you put on that cape, you will be challenged; by family, friends, co-workers, and even acquaintances. Many individuals  are petrified to see others shine their light. Because it becomes a direct reminder that they have yet to turn their own "night light" to the ON position! Misery doesn't just love company my New Age Nerds. IT CRAVES IT! But I've had enough of these numbed out times. I'll take the lead in this charge with a potent message straight to the hearts and souls of the collective ONE MIND! 



Who else in this world is ready for change...
To stand for something more than just greed...
A planet that will still be standing...
When there are millions of mouths yet to feed...

Can there be more than just a few...
Who will shatter other countries sanctions ....
And keep promises sworn to protect..
Through our Super Heroic interactions...

Show me your hand, raise it strong and proud...
Through our example, so others will see 
For one day many more will be standing..
Where now its just you and me...

It will take more than heart and will to be great...
You must be willing to risk all you knew...
To forge a space for love to briskly shine...
And it will all begin with a precious few....

We've been given powers to move mountains..
To shift an entire planet from fear to love...
Yet it's ant hills on which we focus our time..
So be not afraid when GOD gives you a shove...

To become the HEROES this place now needs..
Will take more than you now know....
Thus look for the angelic helpers...
You'll know them by their heavenly glow...

It takes great COURAGE to be great...
And BELIEF in yourself to see it through..
Can't you hear the clicking of the clock...
One day soon your time here will be due....

So dare to be iconoclastic in nature...
Be a disruptive leader in all that you do...
The opinions of others will never matter...
If to thyne own self you are true....

by Jeffrey Louis Martinez


I have a deep rooted knowingness that there are many members of the New Age Nerd tribe who desire to be great. To leave a lasting legacy built on a foundation of LOVE before your time here ends. If any of you feel as though you don't fit in this world, that simply means you were never meant to. You were made to create a new one! So wake up every morning and ask yourSELF one question. 

"Today, what can I make possible for this new world!!" 

See you in the history books!


BE SUPER HEROIC!!

Nerdmaste,

Jeffrey Louis Martinez