Push PAST Your PAIN... You Are A POWERFUL VESSEL..!

Anyone following my blog knows the past several years have been ripe with a series of rippling, chaotic events often sending me back down on my knees praying for relief (or further understanding) from yet another major life setback.  From one of the major health maladies that afflict my Heaven sent body, painful losses of loved ones (familial, romantic, or professional) to fiscal fiascos that have threatened my well long lasting being, it seems the Universe has been quite liberal in throwing "Divine Darts" my way! And it just so happens this year has been NO DIFFERENT! I am currently in the middle of a severe flair up from both Crohn's dis-ease and Aynklosing Spondylitis.  Both of which have not always been friendly based spiritual advisors the last 30 years of my life. To be fair, I did have a ten year reprieve from the abhorrent, devastating affects that these two ailments serve up on a tarnished silver platter from time to time. (But time is only an illusion, right!--that's for another post!) But as the preverbal saying does go, 

"To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under the sun,
A time to be born and a time to die,
A time to weep and a time to dance...."

And so dancing I will continue to do; even if it is with the tip toe dalliances from my fingers darting and dancing around my computer's keyboard! Because BEING A VICTIM to your current circumstances is akin to shunning the very reason for your life's unique CALLING! As I have professed time and time again...   NOTHING EVER HAPPENS TO YOU.......   EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR YOU! If anyone of you is still entertaining a thought of garnering a Tattoo, that last statement may very well be the most important bit of understanding worth considering to pin on your not so eternal body! Just sayin! ;0) 

Many of the soft spoken SPIRITS on this planet have long wondered the purpose for the current state of our World as well as their place within its potential demise. We all wake up every morning to a deluge of electronic information exploding with worrisome details of a World gone plunder. Too much to shield from the wonder filled imaginations of our very own children. Wild fires and gun shots here! Political upheaval there!  Underprivileged and underserved SOULS EVERYWHERE! Right?!

Yet, as THE GRAND CREATOR has promised us, (if even through nighttime whispers of dreams filled with ripe resolutions of people and places to still plant our spiritual seeds) there is a method to all this madness. For please understand that the ONE GOD MIND herSELF makes NO MISTAKES! NO THING occurring on this planet is happening through pure happenstance! It's all been perfectly orchestrated. All for the greater good! I promise! And as Tom Cruise was presented with in the movie 'Top Gun,' it's best not to write checks your body can't cash! So be rest assured that my spiritual savings are filled with discretionary income! ;0)

Although a profession few of you desire to hear, PAIN IS THE PERFECT PROFESSOR! It destresses our clouded misgivings into detailed visions of the reason why our Earthly sufferings have been bestown upon our individual experiences. Our suffering contains great wisdom. It deepens our core understanding and empathy for all things both great and small. Without suffering, we would not have the conscious connection that heightens our ability to soothe the pain of our fellow brothers and sisters. It softens our touch into soothing balms of LOVE for others to receive in their greatest times of faith bending needs!   

But PAIN without understanding is where SUFFERING goes awry! In the 'Garden of Earthly Understanding,' suffering uncovers our TRUE ESSENCE! It showers us with powerful blasts of wisdom filled rain drops that eradicate the Egoic 'MUCK' keeping us from connecting with our SUPER HEROIC HIGHER SELVES! A Super Powerful sense of re-memberance that WE ARE ALL ONE, and that while our bodies are temporary holy temples, we are all indeed SPIRITUAL BEINGS HAVING A TEMPORARY HUMAN EXPERIENCE! Our ever lasting SPIRITS are SUPER HEROIC! We all chose to manifest into the human condition to afford us the purpose of the grand expansion of our own eternal consciousness! Soul filled currency that will afford us entrance into the ever expanding Kingdom of Love! Ponder that thought the next time you doubt you own Trials and Tribulations...............    ;0)

Pain may at times 'shake you to your knees,' and as tough as this may seem, when it appears, pause for a moment to see what it needs! For pain always comes to shine a light bright as the sun. Showing us the places within that still require our individual attention. The crevices of consciousness that are still looking to become full and whole; so that your SOUL can thrive beyond measure once free from its earthly form! For our earthly struggles become most arduous the moment we look at our lives through the lens of permanence. Meaning we accept our temporary life circumstances as permanent fixtures of eternal experience. For No Thing could be farther from the TRUTH! Our current life circumstances, as challenging or excruciating as they may be, contain only temporary moments of loss, grief, suffering, and pain. And I should know. For the Universe definitely did not skimp on my own soul filled experience of LOVE and LOSS! Grief, pain and suffering. A cascade of moments allowing me to decide for mySELF if this whole damn experience/experiment was worth the effort; for if NOT, then why would I choose to slow down my own soul filled vibration to arrive on the scene of such chaos?! Not to mention the consistent pangs of pain and near torturous sufferings I have endured the past 45 years. No pain, no gain; okeedokee, maybe some days that soothes my pain, for on others, I simply feel like throwing in the proverbial white towel of surrender. I'm quite sure I'm not alone in these ruminations.....    Or am I ?!  ;0)

But it's EXACTLY when we feel as though "All Is Lost," that we must forge on! And see that the thick forest that appears before you is simply an illusion. It's NOT blocking the light; your PERSPECTIVE of your current situation is! Does that make sense. 

Meaning we don't succeed In Spite of our struggles, but rather BECAUSE OF THE UNDERSTANDING AND WISDOM their hard fought garnering brought into our ever expanding consciousness. Easy peezy?! HELL NO! Worth it?! ABSOLUTELY....    every single hard earned thread on your own Superhero's cape! For once our bodies have settled back into the earthly resin from which they came, the growth of LOVE and JOY we took away from our greatest hardships will settle into the vessels in which we use as currency in the hereafter. A cosmic 'Ticket to Ride' with absolutely NO restrictions. And you will have more than earned it! Soul infused universal lessons are indeed hard garnered accoutrements on planet Earth! But they last forever; no questions asked.................. EVER!  

So the next time life is threatening to squeeze the air from your well intentioned breathes, nearly extinguished from perseverance, KNOW THAT YOU ARE BEING USED AS A VESSEL! A twilight painting for all the world to see. A brave portrait of trust, belief, compassion, and knowingness that not one single drop of your pain and suffering is in vein!
YOU ARE HERE TO BE AN INSPIRATION FOR ALL OTHERS! And being an INSPIRATION is perhaps the greatest gift we can give and receive in this short time frame we have chosen to call LIFE! 

Just look at the global impact NBA Superstar Kobe Bryant was able to manifest during his 41 years sharing his worldly talents with our planet! While not everyone can have such a wide reaching rumination, my own father taught me how far a few acts of kindness and LOVE can go toward repairing a Planet in desperate need of UNITY! I was shellshocked during his retirement party as a Virginia based teacher who had AT LEAST ONE STUDENT FROM EVERY YEAR HE TAUGHT! He did indeed leave us all with a template on how to build an everlasting Legacy! 


For where others still see confusion, you are here to show them the calm of the storm. When they experience chaos, it is your purpose to exhibit kindness. And when this World's palette is filled with pangs of separation, may you shine your own LIGHT, as bright as the Sun, with the promise of a new day; in which the wind dries all tears, and the warmth of God's healing hands showers ALL with the understanding that from LOVE doth thee came, and from LOVE will thee return.............

BE SUPER HEROIC!

Nerdmaste,

Jeffrey Louis Martinez

From NOW On, YOU Work For the UNIVERSE!!

Our family just celebrated the 7th Anniversary from the passing of my father, Roger Lee Poston. A man filled with NOBLE intentions brought forth into earthly, tangible form through his fervent and FEROCIOUS efforts. A spiritual being of such blinding light, his skin was double wrapped with sacred stardust; pure LOVE and guided Purpose to be a spiritual servant to the World! 

His grounded experience through 65 years on this planet was as humble as the wings of a humming bird. He never sought adulation or exhalation for his plethora of Divine Deeds. For his concerns were narrowly focused on the underprivileged and laser penetrated toward amplifying the voices of the disenfranchised. Fame and fortune were never on his personal radar, for his BEING had billions of well worn galactic miles that ensured him that such fleeting moments were filled with pleasures tickling only the egoic flesh. Pressed biochemical matter that while garnering billions of souls with a false sense of SELF, also ensured a "Big Bang" of never ending connected experiences for the SOUL filled purpose of learning, growth, and energetic expansion. A hand-held excursion to accelerate the deeply held desires of the entire Universe. Which is no-thing less than leaving the limited, esoteric version of our current "3-D reality" for the more expansive shores of life lived in the realm of a 5-D experience.  The next level of spiritual growth leading towards the ASCENSION of our Soul's Highest Potential! 

The past few weeks, I have been awoken several times in the deep midst of midnight slumber with pangs from SPIRIT. My bed becoming wrought with raspy ripples, sending my mattress shaking from the base up! Not only awakening me from a well earned night's sleep, but also causing me to seriously ponder my own mortality and the "next version of soulful expression" that awaits us all. Like the famous epithet from the film POLTERGEIST, "They're here!" became my constant companion.

It's no wonder I found myself constantly jumping out of the comforting confines of my bed, as my still awakening consciousness was trying to comprehend the "What, How, and If's" that these near supernatural experiences were trying to show/teach me! 

And then, one evening, deep into these nightly experiences, the message became as clear as conscious crystals! SPIRIT had a message that required immediate expression. The constant night filled shaking of my bed was akin to the prerequisite shock of 'Awe and Wonder' that is currently required to awaken us all from our deep slumber! The daily slog of living lives of unfulfilled promise and purpose no longer serving anything or anyone! 

And I could honestly feel my own father's uniquely softened voice whisper to me. And upon retrospection, it suddenly made perfect sense. A spirit that was so intent on being of supreme service during his short 65 years amongst us was the perfect emissary to deliver a message for all the World to hear! And my daily mantra during Morning Meditation is always  "Lord, allow me to be a vessel."  Another little tid-bit to gnaw upon; DO NOT only watch what you wish for, KNOW that it's already on its way. But rarely will it be wrapped in the packaging of your limited 3-D consciousness!  Not to be the bearer of hastened news, but the Universe does not have any Return Policies...  Just sayin....    ;0)

Just to let you all in on a little "Secret," (LOL) but while you may be able to temporarily dodge your collective Purposes, the Universe is ALWAYS watching! Never to judge your progress, but rather just the opposite. To see what you may need to fulfill your very reason for manifesting into the human condition on a planet still under the influence of a 3-Dimensional consciousness. Which in the most basic of terms means living under the guise of SEPARATION. The Great Illusion of All Ages! That in any way, shape, or form, we are separate entities. Rather than the re-membrance and acceptance that WE ARE ALL ONE!
And that our current primary MISSION is to awaken from our deep spiritual slumber to the realization that we all draw upon ONE GRAND CONSCIOUSNESS! While our bodies are indeed sacred temples, they are simply the carriers for our Super Heroic Higher Selves! The temporary housing for our eternal and true essence! Beings of pure LOVE wrapped within Stardust Skin!

And that given such understanding, we are absolutely LIMITLESS IN EVERY CONCEIVABLE MANNER! For once we awaken to our infinite inheritance, there will no longer be any desire for competition; or the hoarding of any form of abundance. For we shall forever re-member that what I do for you, I do for mySELF. And that which I do for mySELF, I do for you! The true meaning of being a SUPERHERO! For we are all EMPLOYEES OF THE UNIVERSE! Light workers who agreed to manifest upon this very planet to assist in the grand expansion of its consciousness into the eternal understanding that we are spiritual beings having a human experience.  And that the ultimate answer to every question is .......     LOVE!

For the great majority of us, the path toward assuming the role of a "Lightworker" is NOT a straight, upward climb. There are certainly more zigs and zags than we ever could have imagined. Perhaps that is why so few of us answer the soulful ring that illuminates us to our Earthly Mission that often comes at the most inopportune time. After all, "comfort zones" feel so damn good, right?! And yet, our true life CALLINGS rarely come at the time of our choosing. This is not because the Universe is a trickster, playing games with our precious earthy experiences. Oh contraire mon fraire! In fact, it's actually quite the opposite. 

The Great and Grand Creator often sends us the reminder of our Earthly mission in one of two ways. The first being when we have finally succumbed to the life experiences of acquiring the "quick hits" of materialistic pleasures. The "easy button" life per se. When we finally believe we have figured out the rules to the game of Life. But these accoutrements often come with a costly price. That being the compromise of living the soulful calling of the purpose filled life we all came here to complete in earnest. We slowly start to succumb to the external successes that are all around us. Fancy cars, houses, clothes, vacations, and "bling" filled jewelry that have become a status statement of a success that only fills the EGO! Now please don't misconstrue this post's intentions. There is absolutely NO THING that should stop anyone from living an abundant life filled with the grandest visions of all this earth affords us all! But if all these "pleasures" come at the expense of completing our life's true calling, then we will forever be stuck in a vortex of accumulating "things."  A Yellow Brick Road to a materialistic "OZ" where there is NEVER enough to fill the hole in our hearts and souls. It's the EGO's way of tricking us into believing that the path to eternal happiness is by the accumulation of materialistic trinkets that will soon turn back into the very form of dust from which they were formed. 

The second delivery system comes just as our life starts to become stifling in every manner. The "jobs" that start to feel like hell bent internment camps; sucking the life from our very veins in every manner imaginable. The relationships that no longer serve us, and the dreams once carried safely within our hearts start to find another place to call home. We begin to feel that our lives have become a vortex of never ending "wrong way" posts that seem to forgo ever showing us the way back to the eternal salvation of peace, joy, and love we so desperately desire! Sound familiar?! ;0)

I have learned that life's greatest gifts often come wrapped in packaging that does not resemble anything you had planned for.  And so very often we miss the blessing that the gift came to bare.  That's why it is so crucial to live in the NOW.  For it contains the heaven sent PRESENT devised and designed just for you;  for your continued growth and understanding.  To allow you to develop the Super Heroic skill sets that will be needed in order to fulfill your own CALLING.  Too often, we stay stuck reliving the past.  Or projecting out toward the future.  And then all the gifts pass us right on by.  Please do not do that!  Your TRIBE is still waiting for you.  You came here to be THEIR SUPERHERO.  And I know you don't want to let yourself or any of them down, right?!  ;0)

However, that is simply the very beginning of spiritual living under the guise of a 5th Dimensional reality. For many of you, the discourse in today's post may feel a tad uneasy to your current sense of consciousness and inner belief system. AND THAT IS ABSOLUTELY OK!! I will try my absolute best to soften the spiritual blow of what and where the UNIVERSE is desiring us to BE-COME! 

The very reason our Planet is slowly dying has to do with the manner in which we are not only treating each other, but the horrendous acts of disrespect that are ensconced with our daily co-creations with Earth! We have all been blessed with an energetic playground that when given the opportunity, imbues our collective consciousness with deep impressions of nature's direct blessings of awe and astonishment. Yet we treat Mother Earth as though she is a second rate citizen. Shunning her from our LOVE and Conservation. As if she can take our daily brutal beatings forever! Do you not understand that this planet and its precarious state is no thing less than a direct reflection of who and what WE ARE BEING! Which is oh so sad....   Don't you think?!   

So the next time you hear someone utter the  words "Stop and Smell the Roses," it just may be the exact healing balm that your SOUL is requiring to continue its path of blossoming into the Greatest Version of It's own Potentiality! As well as a call toward supporting a new conscious effort to respect all beings (especially the very planet WE LIVE ON) with the upmost sense of dignity and LOVE! For there are NO coincidences in this realm. ONLY OPPORTUNITIES FOR GROWTH! 

Deep ridden political discourse, the resistance toward breaking down barriers of understanding, and the insidious connotations that stem from an "IF I WIN THEY LOSE" mentality are slowly chipping away at the very fabric that our forefathers wrought and laid their very lives upon. It takes more than just a great deal of courage and intestinal fortitude to forge through a "mass hysteria" that still buys into a world binded together from a base belief in SEPARATION! How can we possibly come together in UNITY when we continue to act as if we are in any way, shape, or form superior to our fellow brothers and sisters!! Blood lines are not simply "thicker than water," they are the very essence that connects every single living entity on this planet! 

We are currently being called to become something greater; something that can encompass the unlimited levels of service, joy, compassion, and LOVE that are a very part of our birthright. Despite the various versions of outer experiences that are unescapable to our current life visions, we were born to be ONE UNIFIED EXPRESSION OF LOVE! No- thing less......no-thing more.........   

We are all "Legends in the Making." It's our very birthright to be Iconoclastic Innovators! And as Superheroes, we have the super powers to be forcefully disruptive in a world that desires to be awoken from its deep slumber. Showering each day with LOVE BOMBS of spiritual "shock and awe" is our collective purpose on this planet! We knew the nominal norm was no longer serving our highest good. So we are here to LOVE this world back into the LIGHT! 

There is a wonderfully transformative book by Steve Taylor called ‘OUT OF THE DARKNESS’.  He  covers the topic of acceptance in such a beautiful manner, such as in this passage, “I discovered a similar phenomenon when I wrote my book which examines how difficult and dramatic events can sometimes have a positive and transformative effect.  Some of the people in the book underwent transformation after being diagnosed with cancer, bereavement, losing everything to alcoholism, being disabled or suffering from severe depression, and so on.  They found a new spiritual strength inside themselves, felt a new connection to the world, and to other people. A new sense of purpose and meaning.”  But he discovered these transformations ONLY occurred after each individual completely and utterly made peace with the events in their life and ACCEPTED ‘that which now is’.
By letting go and surrendering to the present moment, and accepting it as being exactly where you are NOW supposed to be, can be one of the most powerful practices anyone can incorporate into their spiritual life.

But it is so important to be kind, compassionate, and patient with ourselves through this critical process.  It is not easy. It certainly was not for me.  And it takes time.  And often assistance from our TRIBE, friends and relatives who can hold a space of love and healing for us, until we are strong enough to do it for ourselves.  That is what got me through this arduous process and completely back on track with my passion and PURPOSE!  And saying the Serenity Prayer, daily.  ‘God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.’

For what we resist will persist, and what we look at eventually melts away..... And I think we can all agree....   any and all barriers toward LOVE must become illusions from the 3-D world...as we rise together into a 5the Dimensional reality in which we KNOW, WE ARE ALL ONE~~~

BE SUPER HEROIC!

Nerdmaste,

Jeffrey Louis Martinez

A SUPER HEROIC Tribute to My FATHER...!

Tomorrow is my Dad's Birthday!  He would have been 72 years young.  He passed away from brain cancer back in December of 2013.  The following is my tribute to a man that personified the very meaning of being a SUPERHERO!!  I believe Birthday's should be celebrated for more than just one day.  Because every Spirit's incarnation into this dense realm is a time of joyous Awe and Astonishment throughout the Galaxy............................. 



Some believe that angels are ordinary souls who come into your life to help you believe in MIRACLES once again.  If this sentiment bares any truth, than I met my first ANGEL when I was a young lad of just 3 years of age.   My birth father had abandoned our family while we were living out in California, leaving my mom with two small children, little use of her right arm from a horrendous car accident, and absolutely no money.  But as Napoleon Hill always said, “Within every adversity, every failure, and every heartache there lies within it a seed of an equal or greater opportunity.”

Opportunity comes in many forms.  And often NOT wrapped in the way we would have ever imagined them to be.  Such was the case with Roger Lee Poston!  I first met this slice of Heaven when my mom moved my sister and I from California to Washington DC shortly after my birth father left our tribe.  He was a young man of 25 and was friends with my mom's sister, as they were both teachers just starting out on their career Journeys.  Although we were in many ways an unlikely dynamic duo, it was absolutely ‘Friends at First Sight.’  He was a good ole' country boy from the pan handle of Virginia; think “The Beverly Hillbillies” sans the ‘Beverly’ part.  He had thick, curly hair and despite his very best efforts, a dialect that was laced with the Southern twang garnered from growing up in a little town called Saltville;  known as the ‘salt capital’ of the Confederacy during the Civil War.  His face was quite pale; in fact I always teased him that he had three colors: white, red, and redder!  LOL  Pop was short and stocky with forearms and calves that rivaled those of Popeye.  

His aesthetic contrasted greatly with mine.  I was super skinny with straight, jet black hair and olive skin.  Leaner than a "fritter on a fryin' pan."  I was also painfully shy and introverted. (hard for anyone who knows me now to contemplate)   Due to the harsh traumas from early childhood TRUST was an emotion that felt foreign to my sensibility.  I had been surrounded and raised by women until this extraordinary man appeared in my life.  Suddenly, I was being introduced into the world of ‘guy stuff’ on a daily basis.  From comic books and 7-11 slurpees, to movies and batting cages, putt-putt golf and Spiderman early morning cartoons.  The world suddenly exploded into a cacophony of glorious geekdom!  

And it wasn't just me;  as he showered my sister, mother, and the rest of the Lapham (my mom's maiden name) clan with the same sense of love and reverence.  So when my mom set my sister and I down to let us know he had asked her to marry him, for the first time in my young life, my heart felt a sense of PEACE, and security.  I finally felt......... SAFE!  

I still remember the very first time I was able to garner the courage to call him DAD.   He was getting ready for work, and I paced back and forth just outside his bedroom door.  Practicing all the while, the manner in which I was going to approach him about it.  I placed my ear up to the door and could hear him just about to emerge into our downstairs rec-room.  My palms were sweaty and my heart was literally pounding out from my chest.  Until, the door opened and as he walked out of the bedroom, I tentatively stepped in front of him and looked him square in the eye.   

“I have a question for you,” I said in a hushed voice.  It took all the intestinal fortitude I could muster, my bottom lip quivering just a bit, before finally garnering the courage to ask “Is it OK if I call you Dad?”

He stayed silent for a few precious moments which seemed like an eternity. He placed his right hand on my shoulder and said “Jeff, I have been waiting for you to ask me that for several years.  And there is nothing in this world that would make me happier!”  He then pulled me in for one of his well known "bear hugs" and then he started to cry.  Soon thereafter, tears started flowing from my own relieved core.

But it is what he said next, that has been permanently imprinted into my reverence and Re-membrance of him.  “Jeff, just promise me one thing,” he said.  “Although I will ALWAYS consider you to be my son, if the day comes where you choose to try and meet Danny (my birthfather) I will always support you.  He was part of the process that brought you to me, and for that I will always hold a space of GRATITUDE for Danny in my heart. And I will until the day I die.”  Now it's one thing to utter such good intentions, but my Dad did something I consider to be one of the most powerful testaments toward unconditional LOVE  I have EVER received. Despite many of the ugly acts that Danny brought about us in the years that followed, Dad NEVER once spoke even ONE word of judgement or ill-will towards him.   I knew it was out of respect and still ponder in a complete vibration of AWE whenever I think about this act of unfathomable reverence for a man who caused my family so much pain.   

I contribute SO MUCH of who I AM to this man of undeniable STRENGTH and authenticity.  He taught me what it means to live life as a Gentle Man.  Here is just a sampling of his teachings to me:

~~  Never be afraid of your emotions Jeff.  One of the greatest signs of inner strength and courage is to never be afraid to cry.  In fact, I think as a whole, we shed more tears at the movies to fill an olympic sized swimming pool!

~~Women are the greatest gift to this world.  And should be treated as such.  If I ever find out you have mistreated  a young lady, I will ‘kick you through the goalposts of life.’   If you want to find out what that looks like, test me!   lol

~~ Don't EVER let anyone confuse your kindness for weakness.  They are NOT the same thing.  Buyer beware!

Looking back, my Dad was the very first Superhero I ever met.  Not only did he work two, sometimes three jobs to put food on the table, but HE NEVER CALLED IN SICK IN 40 YEARS.  He considered his teaching occupation as "JOYOUS PLAYING!"  Not working.  I never ONCE heard him complain, even when I could see the toll of working 70 hour work weeks for over 30 years wearing him down to the bone.  He was a true warrior who lived a life that was completely personified by hard work and being of SERVICE always and in all ways.   

This may be hard to believe, but I never saw him buy ANYTHING for himself.  He was much more concerned with making sure his students had anything they needed. Always quick to think of others during any trip to the mall.  “Hell fire Jeff.  The only thing I truly need is the love of your mother, you and Sandy,” (my sister) was his super heroic catchphrase!   

Always a man of his word, he never let me down ONE time during our 40 year relationship.  And he didn't even need a "Batsignal."  His Spidey-sense was always set to surprise and service.  Back in 1997,  when I spent almost a year in the hospital battling Crohn's disease, he came for a visit EVERY SINGLE DAY.  All while working two jobs.  And I mean it;  Dad never skipped one day, always sneaking in a tasty treat, a comic book or one of my favorite films.  

So in 2013, when he was diagnosed with a rare and devastating form of cancer, I had no problem leaving my job and moving into my parent's basement to help with the massive amount of daily care he required.  Although he fought the dis-ease so valiantly, the cancer eventually spread to his brain.  And he passed away in December of that same year.  

I was fortunate enough to be alongside his bed while he passed away.  In fact, my mom, sister, aunt Rena, and my girlfriend at the time were all there holding vigil over him.  The manner in which he transitioned was as close to a MIRACLE as I have ever witnessed.  With only the use of one eye, he was truly able to connect to everyone there.  He lovingly gazed at each of us as we said our individual goodbyes.  But when he got to my side of the bed, his one eye intently glaring into mine without blinking, I felt .....  HEAVEN itself.  "Heaven on Earth!"  His soul was slowly leaving its body temple, while a precious piece remained so we could say goodbye.  While I leaned in close to him, thanking him for all the LOVE, support, and guidance he poured upon me, something magical happened.  I received a quick glimpse of a future period of NOW.  Without saying a word, he was communicating with me in a manner far more clear than using any type of vernacular.  The best way I can explain it is to think of a portal opening up.  It contained images of what my life was to become.  And the message was crystal clear.  It was time for me to start committing to my own PURPOSE and beginning the next stage of my Superhero's Journey.  I felt a sense of peace and KNOWINGNESS in that moment of what I needed to do.  

Dad took three, slow, deep breathes, and then transitioned back into the LOVE of BLISS.  And although I was understandably sad, he had, in those final moments, given me the greatest gift of all! KNOWINGNESS.  It was time for me to use my pain and suffering to become a Wounded Healer.  And for once, I wasn't afraid to take that leap.  My dad showed me a glimpse of the support behind the ‘Curtain of Oz.’  Once taking the smallest sip from SOURCE energy that was available to me in my dad's final breathes, I just KNEW the complete shift I was being asked to take in my life!

So today I honor you Dad.  I MISS you more than you can imagine.  And know you hear my daily prayers of awe filled reverence and grace filled LOVE!  And I have the KNOWINGNESS  that so much of the amazing miracles and daily synchronicities that now shower my earthly essence are orchestrated by you! 

BE SUPER HEROIC!

Nerdmaste,

Jeffrey Louis Martinez

The UNIVERSE Is ALWAYS Guiding You... ARE You LISTENING...!?

In the Summer of 2005, the real estate market in this country was on FIRE.  Individuals were leaving their "day jobs" to become buy and -quick flip- house hunters.  Especially in the "City of Angels."  And I wanted in on all the action.  As did one of my best buds.  When the student is ready, the teacher will appear!  And our real estate instructors were coming into Long Beach, CA for a two day seminar on the art of buying, fixing, and flipping houses for a ton of dough.  Heidi ho, "heidi dough!"   LOL!

My partner in crime and I made the hour long trek down to Long Beach one early Saturday morning. We had already digested a handful of books on the subject like two, true New Age Nerds. We were waiting and ready to RECEIVE whatever SPIRIT had in store for us that weekend.  

The first day's seminar was broken up into two parts.  Both four hours in length.  The two of us were so busy jostling down notes in our real estate journals that we barely thought about food.  But suddenly, a co-failitator of the event walked on stage and announced it was time for our one hour lunch break.  The event planners broke the audience of hundreds up into groups of four.  They desired each group to act as a mini-mastermind. To spend the hour not only eating, but "dreaming and scheming" with one another.  For where there are many, acting as ONE, the fruits will always be multiplied!  

Our fearsome foursome consisted of me and my buddy, as well as a dashing gentleman in his late 40's and an enigmatic woman of Middle Eastern descent approaching 60. (my guess) Small chat amongst us began in earnest as we walked across the street toward the culinary delight filled TGIF restaurant. ;0)  

Given the crowd soon to come, we were fortunate enough to be seated quite quickly.  Our preferred choices daringly decided, small talk resumed as we awaited our food.  I chimed in to ask if everyone was open to sharing a quick story about themselves.  A great ice breaker I thought!  And the team was more than obliged to take part.  

My friend and the gent now seated to his right, told stories about their family.  Both obviously married with kids.  And then, our Middle Eastern friend slowly began to spin her tale. Through a thick accent, and a powerful essence, she had us hooked with the first word "well."  What followed was a story for "All Ages!"  MIND BLOWING in substance and nature!

Her story began nearly 40 years prior.  When, as a 19 year old, she began to have fainting spells.  Apparently, she had fainted over a dozen separate times. Down the stairs, and even once while behind the wheel of her SUV.  Her doctors were completely flummoxed!  They couldn't find one single thing wrong with her.  Specialist after specialist, and she received nothing more than head scratching. 

Until one morning, when she fainted while walking down her home's tall staircase and tumbled straight down into the basement!  Thankfully, her father happened to be home from work at the time and urgently rushed to her side.  She explained to us in great detail what occurred next.

She could feel her SOUL leave her body and watch from above as her father tried his very best to arouse her!  She saw him crying with desperate tears.  "It's OK dad," she attempted to shout.  "I'm alright.  I'm right here!"  Before she could muster the strength to utter another "word," (on the 'other side', we speak through our emotions, but THAT is for another day)  she was suddenly whisked through time and space! She described it in great detail.  It reminded me of the scene in the Jodie Foster film Contact. (If you have yet to see this movie, place it high on your Netflix binge list) When Foster's character is placed in a pod built from extra terrestrial intelligence and sent cruising through the Cosmos.  A vortex of vibrant lights bending into a matrix of delusionary images.  Spinning tunnels of SPIRIT filled abundance, wrapped in clouds of pure consciousness!  

And then, she said, everything came to a jarring stop!  What she uttered next still resides deep within my own KNOWINGNESS.  An energetic form, too beautiful to accurately describe, slowly approached her.  And although the face of this sentient being never fully actualized, she fervently believes it was the essence of Jesus the Christ!  The closer in proximity this 'being' became, the more she described being bathed in LOVE.  A warm glow of "UNADULTERATED JOY" came over her own energetic vibration, she gushed.

Communication between the two then began.  Resolute with each and every word, she said, "I was told that I would be returning, healthy and whole, to my human body.  And now had a MISSION to be fulfilled.  I would be given an ability.  A special gift.  The power to KNOW when someone was NOT following their own personal CALLING.  And it would be up to me to help them Re-member."  We were all quickly jolted from our trancelike sensation, woven by this glorious gal, by the waiter delivering our tasty treats.  

Looking at the clock, we noticed our one hour lunch break was quickly coming to a close.  She we scarfed down our food and began to divvy up the check.  My buddy had to use the rest room, so he shot off away from the table.  And then, just as I was turning to walk toward the establishments door, this "Wisdom Warrior" softly tugged on my shirt.  In her thick Middle Eastern accent, she softly uttered, "Jeff, will you stay back with me for a bit?"  "Absolutely," I said.  And the next five minutes changed the course of my life FOREVER!

She moved in very close to my "personal space."  And looked me dead in the eyes before  explaining, "Jeff, you KNOW why you are here, don't you?"   "Of course I do!  To learn to buy some real estate," I chuckled.  She remained super stoic.  "No.  You know why you are here on Earth?" she questioned.  "Jeff, you are here to be a great spiritual teacher.  To help change the world.  And I know you understand this.  But why do you not do, what you came here to do?" she said with great intent.  Tears began to flow down my cheeks.  It was hard for me to maintain eye contact. She was telling the truth!  And I did know it.  I had since I was 17 years young.  Yet, 20 years later, I was still dabbling and circling my CALLING.  Never committing to it.  "I still don't feel ready," I told her.  "You are more ready than you allow yourself to believe," was her sage advice.  

She grabbed both of my hands with a soft caress.  Touched my chin, and gently lifted up my face so that our eyes could connect.  "There are not hundreds, not thousands, but millions of people that you are here to assist.  You must follow this path.  The world is waiting for you.  I am here to share this re-membrance with you. But it is you who must keep your promise."

My tears became something more akin to leaky faucets.  It struck me as so truthful.  I felt this prickly feeling that grew into BLISS.  It felt as though my own SOUL was "Jumping for JOY."  "Right on, Jeff!  I'm here, for you, and as you, for us all!" is what I garnered from this otherworldly sensation!  

I hugged her tight and she wouldn't let me go.  At least not before whispering into my ear, "Keep your promise."  Our embrace came to its close, and I spent a few minutes trying to compose myself.  Looking at the clock, I was already five minutes late to the second half of that day's seminar.  I dashed back across the street and took my seat alongside my good friend.  At the close of that day's event, I searched and searched, but could not find this "Super Soul Saver," anywhere.  In fact, I NEVER SAW HER AGAIN!


SUPERHEROES IN TRAINING TAKEAWAYS

I wish I had a dollar for every time I have heard the utterance, "I wish life came with a guidebook!"   Well, it actually does!  We are often just to distracted to actually RECEIVE it. 
The Universe is constantly communicating directly with you.  Sometimes it is quite subtle in nature.  It may whisper its messages through the next song on your Alexa playlist.  Or the children's television show you have watched for the 100th time.  Yet during the 101st replay,  you are relaxed and fully present.  And, BOOM, it jumps out at you.  Just what you needed to hear!  It was always there! (slap to the forehead)  

Re-member Dorthy, from the Wizard of Oz.   Her lesson is OURS!   That's why that film will continue to transcend its place in time FOREVER!  Her "super powers," along with all the answers she was searching for were right there with her; the entire time.  She just needed to be re-membered of them.  That's what we are all doing here my dearly beloved New Age Nerds!  Assisting one another in Re-embering "Who WE Really Are."  

Haven't you ever wondered why this extraordinary planet is filled with so many amazing creatures?!  Yes, its partly because all of Nature is where the garden of "Awe and Astonishment" is nurtured.  But it is also because it gives the Universe the most unimaginably wondrous ways through which to communicate with us!  As when a recent passed member of your tribe promises to communicate with you once "on the other side."
And the love of birds or butterflies that you both shared is the very sign that begins to show up on a daily basis!  

As for me personally, I wouldn't have it any other way!  Forget the guidebooks.  Give me the serenity of seasons change.  The sense of emotionally charged power and ONENESS that imbues my heart and soul when synchronicity graces me with its magic! The wonder of NOT KNOWING, until suddenly, YOU DO!  All because someone carried a seed meant to be ever so caringly planted within your ONE MIND.  

Once the few begin to commit to awakening the many, our current opioid epidemic will be vanquished back to the land of the lost.  Because once you taste the sweet nectar from the chalice of your Super Heroic Higher Self, the high from any foreign substance will feel emotionally barren.  I promise!  ;0)

So I think it's time for all of us to make a commitment to ourselves and others.  I pledge allegiance, to the flag......ummm  no no no.  Wrong pledge!  LOL!

Seriously, what would it feel like to commit to becoming a fully self actualized Soul on this planet.  Declaring to the Universe that you are ready, willing, and waiting!  You won't even have to do all the heavy lifting.  Because in leaving all the "HOW's" to the Universe, you will be free to see with fresh eyes;  listen with eager ears.  For all the magical manners in which the Grand Creator herself will impress upon you the soft signs, intuitive hunches, and in your face "wallops of wisdom" a dozen or more times a day!   Leading you to all your own answers.  And blessing you with the directions and plans to fulfill your personal CALLING.  And never ending abundance in all its forms then floods your daily experience; all for you to share in loving service with the world.  Sound groovy?!  It sure does to me!

BE SUPER HEROIC!

Nerdmaste,

Jeffrey Louis Martinez